Paper Dolls Bestowing Goodness

Hello friends and dreamers, I'm so excited to show you my latest creation! As you know I've been taking Dream Boogie with SARK where my focus has been to truly, deeply find LOVE for myself. I've tried everything else and found that without self-love your entire world collapses. It may not literally collapse, but it will never be as expansive as it COULD BE if you loved yourself (no matter what.) I mentioned in my last post how I've been experiencing the dirt rising up from my seeds. Oh yes! Heavy dirt. Dirt very skilled and well trained in muddying up vision. I've been walking around for a good week or two with this sludge dragging along behind me. Then yesterday as I was sitting here writing it out, I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the TV far across the room. I truly SAW MYSELF in this moment as a reflection of my past. I saw this little girl who carried around journals and propped her head up all the time as she beared through life. And then I saw me, the adult, propping up my head writing in my journal. Yet again I'm realizing that I'm replaying patterns, and repeating some of the things my mother put me through. It's simple, yet so complex. Trust that I'm not trying to whine, or complain about my upbringing. I can truthfully say I have no regrets regarding the trials and tribulations of my youth. I'm actually grateful. Namely because I love what it showed me. I love what I've learned. I love how I'm able to see and feel so deeply, and help others too. I'm just so ready to start harnessing that energy instead of using it so often to sabotage myself!


Aside from all this soul searching, part of my DREAM has been for my illustrations to do their work by, "going out into the world with magical capes bestowing goodness and peace..." I've been focusing so much on "self-love" that I put my illustrations aside for a bit, until I met Kathryn aka Collage Diva aka TrueNorthArts. She posted on the dream boogie forum sharing a link to her blog and her "Guardian Doll" swap. She left it open to interpretation. I used it as the opportunity to 1. Use my new PO BOX! 2. Participate in a swap (finally!) And 3. Flex my creative muscles. After I made this doll, I felt a sense of relief. I actually danced around the house in the most ridiculous way. I'm so eager to make a small army of these, because nothing defeats the infiltrators of our minds like an entire army. Yeah! Take that. This doll has a sewed on pocket near her heart. Here's what she has to say:

• Reveal Your Strengths

• Silent Angels Always Listen

• Travel Farther, Deeper into Your Potential

• be BIG

• Sit Down, Shut Up, and Get Messy (Making Anything)

• No more box!
  

I took these messages from bits of my journals and just whatever popped into my head.

projector + plug + girl = my electric heart

I leave you with an excerpt from my journal yesterday:

"You have a navigational system, internally, and it's always on. You are safe in the arms of your own experience, wherever that takes you. . ."

And I just found this from my journal the day before:

"I come in search for answers, for a deeper reflection into who I am. . . "

I didn't recall asking that question on Sunday, but on Monday I got my answer (literally from my own reflection!) I promise you (if you didn't already know) answers of all forms will appear if you just ask. Sometimes I think invisible hands are writing for me, telling me things I need to hear. If only I could ALWAYS remember the beautiful messages, and not get lost in shadows, but then again who would I be without the shadows?. . .

OH! I almost forgot! I've been featured on the blog of Lezli Goodwin: right here. Lezli is a beautiful creative soul who is already bestowing good in the form of what she calls "Spunky Spirtuality." Love it. Love her! What she wrote about me was SO nice...

Until next time. Thank you my friends for listening, supporting, sharing, and believing in me. I truly, madly, deeply appreciate it ;-) I couldn't be more thankful.