"i find shelter in this way"

"I find shelter, in this way

Under cover, hide away..."

"Can you hear, when I say?
I have never felt this way"

I'm looking for that high you can't get in a bottle, a bag, a box, a powder, a joint, a hit, a snort, a chug. i need something lasting, pure, and far less toxic. i'm not knocking drugs, it works for a lot of people. as for me i vow to grab the bull by the horns and hone that inquisitive wonder i felt every waking moment as a growing child. brilliance. bliss. tenderness. or that thing you had before the world came along to tell you differently.

"And I'll cross oceans, like never before
So you can feel the way I feel it too"

I don't care anymore whats in these bags of mine, flawed on this flesh of mine, or lost in this sea of time. i'm here proud of who i am, where i've been, where i'm going.

"I still want to drown, whenever you leave

Please teach me gently, how to breathe"

"Shelter" Lyrics by The Xx

a b i g brave journey of (self) love.
carissa