Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Saintly Stranger by the Sea
(Continued from previous post)
Three years after we moved into this house, at the age of 23 or 24 -- I got fired from an office job, drove directly to the ocean & plopped down on the beach, blinded by tears. Here I met a mystical man who, in so many words, told me my future. Through my bleary eyes I felt it all coming true. My overcoming and becoming. Discovering my inner force all over again. Watching all the negatives in my life wash away like tides on the shore. He was so right about everything. And then he disappeared.
It's amazing how we have this power to influence other people in such a positive way, with or without realizing it. This man was homeless, young, and had a celtic cross tatooed on his upper arm. He had striking blue eyes and a deep brilliance I will never forget. With his arm wrapped around me I peered through tears into the wild blue ocean. I sobbed and heaved and told him, this perfect beautiful stranger, my fears and woes and my deepest dreams and hopes -- how I was so tired of it all, THE MASQUERADE. Here is, more or less, what I told him:
"All I ever want in this life is to break free from all the invisible chains. No more lifeless body clocking in and filing reports and sending faxes and talking on phones to assholes just so I can furrow away some little paycheck in order to pay for my medical bills one day when it all comes crashing down. It feels so far from the truth of who I am, where I need to be...."
He knew I would be here, right where I am today. And he told me it would be so.
So here I am now - 30 years old, strolling on the shores of who I am with my head held high. I am an Artist. I am a Woman. I am a Brave Creature. I am making Art, selling vintage + manifesting my own unique destiny. And it's all just been one foot in front of the other. I may not know exactly where I'm going, but I'm sure as hell on my way!
PS. I have so much catching up to do!!! I had the most deeelightful New Years Weekend, but then my body decided it needed to sweep out a little dust. I'll be back very soon to share some very BIG NEWS.