First - thank you guys SO so so much for all your kind encouraging words. You have no idea how much it lifts + warms my soul.
This is where I landed Saturday morning - The Night Swan, a Bed + Breakfast! I've embarked on the gigantic scary journey.
Here's the big news: One weekend a month for 9 months I'll be here in this historic house studying a fusion of Yoga (Hatha + Kundalini,) Ayurveda, and Numerology (among other things I'll share as time goes on!) with teachers/mentors I've known and adored for over 10 years. When the opportunity presented itself a few months ago, I immediately felt a big "YES! You have to do this, right now. . ." Which was followed by "NO! No. No. No. What the hell do you think you're doing?!" Before I could let the little "no" demons stake their claim I went w/ the first thought and signed on. It's truly a once in a lifetime opportunity.
On Saturday with fear and shivers and shyness in all their glory - I drove my little car toward the coast, over the bridge and parked in the gravel lot across from The Night Swan. The B+B consists of 3 separate houses in total and is run by a husband + wife (they're so cute!) I wandered around for a while then found the french doors that held a room of 11 or so other people. . . . and my day began.
It was a great day. At the end, as the sun began to fade, I sat here dazing out at the intercoastal. I could hear church bells nearby ringing a tune I instantly recognized as -- "How Great Thou Art." My Grandfather always busted out in song, this was one of his favorites. I smiled to myself as tears filled my eyes. I felt my Grandfather there w/ me in spirit, watching, smiling w/ approval, and it all felt right - I know I've made the right decision, challenging as it may be.
Whew, so that's where I'm at. . . bracing my main topsails aback, riding the waves w/ the wind in my ears.
Thanks for listening, reading, writing, simply being.
Love + Light, Carissa
PS. I may set up a "page" within my blog to post more detailed logs of this journey, because I'm sure I could go on-and-on + I don't want to annoy you. I'll see how it unfolds.